Anak0din

Friday, March 25, 2016 @ 6:42 PM

Im just a loner in life,
In everyway i do, its just a mistake.
When the most crucial time i need the man the most, that when was being disappointed the most, most upsetting and unbearable hearbreak.

It's okay, if you are gonna tarnish me all over my face to whoever, be it your cousins or what.
I left my family for you and these is all you repay back?
Wait. What about thoss outstanding monies you owe my parents? Have you even thought of paying them back? Then those monies you owe people?
Why am i the one have to pay the price for every mistakes that you done?
You can't accept me for my imperfections then why am i here accepting your selfishness?.
You can put all the blame on me, but dont forget in life its a two way thing.
It may not be today, retribution may hit you, it may go to your daughter, by then i sincerely would say its too late to realise by then.
Telling me stories about your parents or family, how and what they were like to be. Doesnt mean you can lay hands on me just like your father did to your momma.

My dad never once lay hands on me, nvr once call me a lier, i once lived in a way better life. Everything i need was there, but there were no family bonding.

What you asked from me, you get it.
What about those promises you made, have you deliver it yet?
NO. None of this ever exsisted.
Its just the sugar coated words.
From the xbox to the family staycation to my 24th birthday present. Its all just a lie.

You did things to me, and after all i guess im the stupid one who stayed and being played out upteen times.
You use peoples name. And do you think these people would help you? No.
It's not that i don't know about your colleagues said and portray about you alot. I know every single thing.
I dont rub salt to the wound, i dont add fuel to the fire.

My third pregnancy is overboading, do you think i can control it?
Do you think i really want to be this way?
I never wanted to have the 3rd now.
I never did.