Nurul Aysha Khamarudin.
kiddokiaaaa baby, kiddolicious, sasha
Arab
#Altakhi
2nd January
Better then your Ex, Better then your Next
I ♥ Bershka, Red, Black , Orange, Ben & Jerry's, Soccer, thrills, Baby Taz/ Tazmania Devils , Liverpool ♥

it has been way too long that i've update this blog of mine..


Firstly, lets welcome my latest addition, A son Farihin Ashaary. another beautiful gift from Allah.


Secondly, i've been standimg strong to hold on onto everything, going through almost everythinv was the most difficult thing to do in my life. 6th months pass, and i have no strenght to hold on to anymore.

I don't have the siblings to share my problems with, nor parents to discuss about my current situations , neither i do rely on them pretty much. I may no longer be the same person over the years but my character can be cold and harsh .

Things have not been the way i yearn for it, everything just came tumbling down.
No one knows what it feels to be step on, over and over again .
Trying to make a change alone, when the other party is not even doing anything.
What weighs me down the the pilling burdens.

There's no words can describe how painful , and how struggling my life could be better.
The only thing i could do is to cry to sleep and praying and hoping for a wonderful thing to happen , something like miricle., but i guess its not coming any soon.

I always eanted the best to happen, but simply just 1 person to ruin it all.
Glassed shattered into pieces , nothing that can make it perfect.



The only thing i'm hoping for and the only thing that keeps me going pn is my kids.
Struggling, even if death arise the kids will be my priority.. back to top?