22.04.10 .
I'm starting to miss abang badly, i bet his worst day ever, and thanks to every fucker who destroy his life. I'm making a point to this date, I'm going stronger, to help my brother out, no matter how afraid am i. This morning, my mood was a downturn, dad allows me to go for the jarkarta trip and soccer camp & which i remember clearly that boyfriend allow me to go, because he knows i want to get the experience of it, but somehow, i felt insecure through out the day thinking of what boyfriend said. Definately, i'll miss his 18th birthday, but i promise him, i'll make it up to him and what hurts me the most, he told me not to get him anything, and i'm like omg. *speechless habis punya*
Bumped into smiley, and met him in school after meeting fiqah to pass the form and money since mr ratna is on course. Hang around the pool area and off to tamp to have lunch cum dinner at kfc, thank you brother smiley for the treat. Upon reaching home, i my mood was on track, but it soon it went downturn again is all because i waited for a call, which was only made at 1138pm .
I felt that i was a fool waiting for a person, was really upset about it. Reading his text message even more, i bet i'm going to suffer bipolar in the future, touch wood, astaga . I really hate this feelings when everything affects me a lot, the pain that is suffering cuts me now and then .